Exchange throwback

yup, it's throwback time. the video below is 100 % phone material - thank you samsung for these awesome pics and vids, hahahah, but hey no joking; the quality is crap. whatever, it sure cheers me up when i'm feelin' down.
the pics are in the correct order - from my first day to my last.

i do not miss it, not like that. 

i loved the people, i loved the language, i loved the culture.

but i also love the choice i made; to come back home early.

There's times where like
We find it hard
To hold on to something
That was never meant to be held onto

But you let it go

If it comes back it was meant to be

If not, just let it be

                            - Travie Mccoy 

"the last few days have been horrible. it's been so hard that i've been thinking about giving up with this crap. my emotions are killing me, i hate feeling so god damn lost. the image of a perfect exchange year in england has shattered away. i just want to feel something. i'm numb. 

i don't know, it's like, every day is a new chapter, a new story and i need to figure out the guideline over and over again. it's like i'm trying my hardest to be happy and positive, but the harder i tell myself to be something, the harder it is to react. i try to smile, but my body refuses to be the source for that small gesture - a tiny tiny lie. because i don't know, i don't know if i'm happy. i'm just getting used to living in a fog of confusion." something from my journal in december 2013, back when i was in england

i don't have anything else to tell you. byeee