heyyaa whatup ? i'm feeling fine as always after a good good weekend. on friday i went to borgå by bus (awesome bus music xxxx !) and did all kinds of cool things there, like went to a party, had coffee with frida, and saw divergent with cecci.
i don't know, i've been feeling kinda off lately.
apparently i have a "edit the photos as much as possible" phase going on, but whatever, i like it.
i want to do something with my hair ..
change it.
change everything.
If only New York wasn't so far away I promise the city won't get in our way When you're scared and alone, Just know that I'm already home- a great big world "already home"
Tomorrow's monday.
I don't mind mondays.
Monday means routines, it means i have stuff to do
yup, it's throwback time. the video below is 100 % phone material - thank you samsung for these awesome pics and vids, hahahah, but hey no joking; the quality is crap. whatever, it sure cheers me up when i'm feelin' down.
the pics are in the correct order - from my first day to my last.
i do not miss it, not like that.
i loved the people, i loved the language, i loved the culture.
but i also love the choice i made; to come back home early.
There's times where like We find it hard To hold on to something That was never meant to be held onto
But you let it go
If it comes back it was meant to be
If not, just let it be
- Travie Mccoy
"the last few days have been horrible. it's been so hard that i've been thinking about giving up with this crap. my emotions are killing me, i hate feeling so god damn lost. the image of a perfect exchange year in england has shattered away. i just want to feel something. i'm numb.
i don't know, it's like, every day is a new chapter, a new story and i need to figure out the guideline over and over again. it's like i'm trying my hardest to be happy and positive, but the harder i tell myself to be something, the harder it is to react. i try to smile, but my body refuses to be the source for that small gesture - a tiny tiny lie. because i don't know, i don't know if i'm happy. i'm just getting used to living in a fog of confusion." something from my journal in december 2013, back when i was in england
I'm a phoenix in the water And so I'm wishing, wishing further,
A fish that's learned to fly For the excitement to arrive
And I've always been a daughter It's just I'd rather be causing the chaos
But feathers are meant for the sky Than laying at the sharp end of this knife
- gabrielle aplin, "home"
"dumt va? när jag borde räkna upp hans bästa sidor får jag inte tag på dem.. men varje gång jag ser honom i ögonen är det som om någon skulle tända eld på mitt ansikte, som om mitt hjärta plötsligt skulle bryta ut i lågor. ja, han gör mej hel då jag faller i bitar."
something from my journal in july 2013
i want to travel.
now.
forever.
some of these pics are from my trip to new york.
i loved that city so much. there's nothing like it, really.
that's why im so happy about going to america again this fall.
it will be amazing.
❀ todayi'm happy about
good music. music that makes you happy no matter how down you're feeling.
like On top of the world by imagine dragons, this weeks feel good -song
or Kerosene by The Exchange. It's been weeks since i saw them live, but i still can't stop listening to their album, they're amazing.
i wouldn't mind living in a paralell universe, where easter breaks weren't so goddamn boring and filled with.... wait what? that's right; filled with n o t h i n g. i hate holidays; there's nothing to do. you get to sleep late, fair enough; that's cool, but the stores are closed and the gym is overflowing. so i've been staying inside, ignoring the "lovely" sunshine and watching game of thrones, listening to lorde and imagine dragons, eating blueberries and drinking coca cola.
i don't mind really, but still, i need my routines and normal weekdays, thank you very much.
