radioactive

i've been floating. and when i float, when i float, i'm floating away, i'm free falling. there's nothing abow me, nothing below, there's only a shimmering vacancy of silence. i'm part of nothing when i'm a component of absence. i've been floating. like a bird without wings, i've been falling. i've been falling, but never fell. there is a beauty in walking away. when you hear the humming sound of suppressed laughter, you learn to let go, you let go, but your heart cries blood and unknown memories. that's when you start floating. in the silence of your own possessed past, you drift away. i've been floating.

it's past midnight and i should be sleeping, but i kinda wanted to write a bit. so here you go.

Nykter utav vin och full av längtan

 oldie 2012 - my stunning friend frida being all happy and summery 

i've been watching the walking dead like 24/7 and dreaming about summer and thinking about how things used to be. i've been talking to more people in my new school and wearing skirts all day every day. i've been painting my nails and chatting on skype. i've been drinking cranberry juice and planning trips and studying for exams. i've been walking around lahti and finding new places and listening to amazing music. i've been happy and in love and overjoyed. i've been sad and confused and clueless. i've been alive.

the stars make love to the universe

..  i really don't feel like writing a lot, but let's just say i had a perfect weekend in england. saturday was amazing; shopping and coffee with jule&julia (we had a great time; love them so much!) and later there was a gig at a pub somewhere just outside the town i guess (a village ???) and we took the bus there (me, ida, charlotte and aurora), drank a bit, chilled with people from our college (or their college, since im not a student there anymore) and ended up climbing over a shit high fence to get to a park. we got home around three-four am and slept like babies zzzz, cool huh?

i love england, but i'm also happy to be home, there's a lot going on right now and i have loads of stuff to do. hopefully i'm going back soon though, i need a bit of uk every once in a while.